Monday, July 24, 2006

Bent But Definitely Not Broken

She struggled through the week. She knew she needed to get all of her stuff back from him, and she just didn’t know if she could hold it together to see him. She wanted to stay strong. She kept telling herself that she wouldn't have to put up with his crap, no more ex girlfriend, no more paying for things that he should have paid for, no more drama. She believed herself too, but she still didn't think she could see him. See him not with her.

When the day finally came, he was cold and cruel. He glided into her house with a smirk on his face that she almost couldn't bare to see. He told her she was being bitter and mean, when she was only trying to be strong. This only brought on her well hid tears. She ask him if that was what he wanted, did he need to see her cry, did it make him feel good to see her so upset? He told her he could never see himself married to her, she had to laugh at that, it had only been a few months, marriage was not in the equation for her. But it was a little stab to hear him say it just the same. She told him she would never want to marry someone that made some of the choices he did, but that she cared enough about him to overlook it and move on. After he left she lost it, she couldn't help it, it was just to surreal for her.

A few days later something happened. She heard that he had done exactly what she thought he would. She knew all along he wasn't over the ex, but she couldn't understand why. But then it hit her, everything did, when she heard they story about he and his ex that night, something in her straightened. She realized that it was passing, just as she knew it would. She just didn't expect it to happen so soon. All of a sudden she was repulsed by him, all of a sudden she was looking forward to meeting new guys, having first dates, getting her life back and not being part of his. All of a sudden she realized, she wasn't broken, he wasn't a good enough person to break her. She was bent, but she's since seen the reality of him and the situation, and she's straightened and is looking forward to her future instead of looking back at their past.

3 Comments:

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Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am pleased for you the feeling came over you so soon regarding that guy and you didn't waste anymore time over so unworthy a person.

10:00 AM  
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