Life In Slow Motion

Lately I feel like I have been living my life in slow motion. The days seems to dissolve into each other, each day not being much different than the one before. I think I'm in a rut, or could it be a routine? Could it be that for the first time ever I know what it's like to be settled and in control of my life?

That's exactly why I feel like I do. I am settled, I am in control, I am in a routine, and I am getting a little bored. Everyday is the same. Wake up, walk the dog, shower, go to work, take lunch at 11am., go home, play with the dog, go back to work, eat in my cubical, work until 5pm, go to the gym until 7pm, go home, walk the dog, shower, eat dinner, play with the dog/watch tv, go to bed. Repeat! That's my day, my entire day.

It's not that I don't love going home to my dog, in fact, if he wasn't there, I would be lonely. It's that sometimes I want someone to shower me with affection that doesn't have four legs and want to be scratched behind the ears. It's just been so long since I have had a real boyfriend or even a non-disastrous date. Don't get me wrong, I am not looking for a relationship, I like being self sufficient and independent. But what happened to a good old fashioned date? The kind where you meet a guy, you talk a little, maybe flirt a little, and he says something like "would you like to have dinner on Saturday night"? Where are the guys that do that?? Now days it's so easy for guys, and we females have made it that way. Gone are the dates of dinner and a movie. Now it's meet up at a bar, have a few drinks, and see where the night takes us. It's for this very reason I have been living my life in slow motion. I don't want to go out to a bar with drink specials, that stays open until 5am, and look for "a guy". Chances are I will find several. But they won't be date material, and at 3:30am after several drink/shots, they won't be thinking, "I would really like to take her to a nice dinner next weekend and maybe a movie".

So I choose to stay in my routine. I'm not willing to sell myself short by going out with some guy, just to have a date and a little attention. I would rather wait until a good guy finds me. I am usually the type of person that sees what she wants and charges after it, but in this situation, I am going to wait. Hopefully I will meet a guy, go on a real date that doesn't include Jello Shots, and speed up my slow motion a little.